You're in a rut.
I know the feeling despicably well.
How to solve it? Well, I went overseas for two years, which, understandably is not open to everyone, but I guess getting out of your normal routine is the best idea. And I don't mean school etc. (though I'm only assuming you're school age... ) Do something you don't normally do, something safe, mind. Do you go out often? What do you avoid doing, and why?

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I am feeling better now, I'm out of school. I have the house to myself and I can do whatever my little heart pleases so long as I don't get caught. I no longer am surrounded by a suffocating feeling of routine because I have no school.

"I brought a snowflake in to the classroom, it was pretty and unique not another snowflake like it, but when I brought it into the school, it became just another drop of water like everyone else."

I guess thats what it means to me. But I just have some odd, odd feelings and mood swings and I'm glad you have found ways to deal witht he feeling, I guess all I needed was a little freedom.^^

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Some brilliant man, whose name I forget; once said "Don't fuck with what you can't control"...If that phrase were true, Shit! I'd never get laid!!

That's great to hear. I like the saying about school, it's totally true, and despite the painful nessecity of it, it's still a generally unpleasant experience. i don't remember my own schooling fondly, though Iam grateful for the knowledge.

I really am pleased to hear you're feeling better though. it's one HELL of a nasty sensation.

*Sparkly good vibes your way!*

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THank you for the support and good words yes I can feel the vibes!! W007!!! ANd yes one hell of a nasty sensation it is. How old are you exactly? you don't remember school fondly so I'd say your at least 20 something....

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Some brilliant man, whose name I forget; once said "Don't fuck with what you can't control"...If that phrase were true, Shit! I'd never get laid!!

Good guess, I'm 24.
School for me was seven years ago- not counting post school education, whcih was a great deal more plesant- but I went to the most awesome art school ever, even though it wasn't exactly the most prestigious, and of course, my current schooling- Circus school, which is like one big huge happy loving family (it has to be, you trust the people around you completely, or you just don't do the trick...)
But I can look back now with that distance, and see things a lot more clearly for what they were. Social polotics.

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Yeah I know they wrap things in a happy ending and call it progress. But Circus school sounds cool, my friend gus, hes a fire spinner and a professional clown, he's going to camp winnarainbow this year, lucky guy.

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Some brilliant man, whose name I forget; once said "Don't fuck with what you can't control"...If that phrase were true, Shit! I'd never get laid!!

Yeah I know they wrap things in a happy ending and call it progress. But Circus school sounds cool, my friend gus, hes a fire spinner and a professional clown, he's going to camp winnarainbow this year, lucky guy.

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Some brilliant man, whose name I forget; once said "Don't fuck with what you can't control"...If that phrase were true, Shit! I'd never get laid!!